Friends

My friends are my life. They know me better than my family. I can count on them more than any other person that I'm related to. They have never judged me. Never back stabbed me. They have have always told me the truth, they have taught me the truth. I think my friends have done more for me than I have done for them and they still are my friends. My friend "R" is more than a friend she is my confidant, angel, joy, smile, my escape, my belief system, she brings me back when I'm lost, she always knows when to call, she always knows when I need her. She is my sister. I hope to never disappoint her, like a daughter with her mother but if I did her judgment wouldn't be the same.
All of my friends are so different, none of them are friend with each other. Although that would be nice. I have one friend "C", she just found out she's pregnant, but yet another friend just had a miscarriage.
All of my friends live away from me. I hate it. They are all I've got.

"R" I can't do this with out you and he knows that so everything has to be fine. I wish so bad that I can be there with you. I try so hard to be there for you with everything else, and here I failed when you needed me for you. You are my forever friend and besides where am I gonna live if your not there? So you have to wake up.

I'm lost

I've started this because even though I know I can call a friend I wonder if anyone else can relate> I am married but I feel single. I have children that I adore but I want to runaway. Nevermind I'm not ready.